Time is Flying

Good lord, look at the date! September is flying past. October is fast approaching and I’ll be deep into finding another place to live.

The Chinese slum house I’m in now was simply the best, closest one I could get for what I wanted to pay. I can afford plenty more in rent, but that’ll get me a house far bigger than I want around here. This place fit the bill to finish my commitments around here while making the move far easier than it otherwise would’ve been.

Right now, I’m struggling to come up with a reason to stay in Plano, North Dallas, or even Texas, to be honest. Personally, I feel unmoored from the life I’ve had in North Dallas. I feel out of place in my parish and don’t really want to attend the one near me. That may be that I’m no longer running anything in any capacity. I have a lot of friends in both churches. But, in reality, I have only a few friends here that are close, with whom I can talk honestly.

I’ve been waiting for a few signs in my personal life, something worth staying for. But I’m finding quite the opposite. The last two ‘signs’ really hurt. I have thick skin, I get it. It’s what it is. Knowing how the field is striped is a plus, I suppose. I’m still dismayed and saddened nonetheless. Just another few anchors that buttress what I’ve thought all along and said here before.

So, in a few weeks I’ll start looking at places in person. I’ve seen more than a few that are not only nicer than where I’m living, they are less expensive. Of the two towns I’ve been scoping out, one is on the border of the grey zone (the metroplex proper), the other out of it. Both are a short drive from the Girl’s place. So I’ll save money on rent. I’ll save money on gas, since trips back up here will be few and far between.

Where I’m looking is just southwest of the airport. From there, I can hit Dallas or Fort Worth in twenty minutes or so. Good for job hunting, if that’s needed. Both towns have Catholic churches, with great housing close by. I hang out there all weekend as it is and quite frankly, I’m not shy. Meeting people comes easy to me. I’ll meet more friends. I’ll also be able to spend more time with the Girl. We’ll see if what we have is going to go anywhere. It very well may. She’s an amazing woman.

Not having to transverse the metroplex, I’ll also be poised to head to all the cool spots south of here on the hot rod bike. Shaves an hour or more in road trips, and all those green areas have cool twisty roads.

It’ll also setup my cash burn rate to go part time if I want (or have) to.

Few reasons to stay. Many to leave.

(Sorry for the bummer post. I’m dealing with withdrawal again. I don’t take the drugs for my face often, but it’s been acting up. Gets rid of the nerviness, screws my stomach, and leaves me in a shitty mood at the end of the day)