I signed off my divorce decree this evening.
I have mixed emotions about it.
I may or may not have anything to say about it in the future.
To be honest, what I feel now is mostly pain. I had an upper GI endoscopy where they stretched my throat and esophagus. The damage from radiation therapy has gotten worse. It’s apparently real stiff, and the doc had a hard time stretching it. There’s also other damage to it, and my stomach is a mess as well.
So it hurts. The antacid with lanicane in it does wonders.
Not a happy dude this week.
Inspected By Pat 
That you have mixed emotions about the D.D. tells me it was not nearly the all out thermonuclear warfare that I went through. Fortunate, that. We were 18 and 20 years in recovery at the time and my Mrs. decided to start drinking again. It was 20 years ago. SHE has since passed.
There’s an entire LITANY of things I _could_ say… but I’ll say only a fool continues to beat a dead horse, aye?
As to the physical stuff hopefully things will work out and whatever it was they were treating has been resolved.
As to not being happy for the moment? Understandable. These are not the things one tends to be happy about.
Dunno if you have a Publix… or some other such establishment near by… but there is a brand of teas… “Yogi” and they have a “Stomach Ease” variety that is imminently salubrious for the digestion. I recommend it highly. Publix carries it… if there are none in your area, a health food store would be the better place of purveyance to look.
As to the state of mind? You have dogs. Look to them. They can be comforting and their inner goofiness can and will always bring a smile.
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